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28 June 2007 @ 11:38 pm
that sense of failure  
I didn't get the part. I'm devastated. I was hysterical when i found out - how pathetic is that? It was probably more than that - mum had given me a leaflet about Eptopic Pregnancy, to help me understand it, and i think everything all just got to me. This feels like the final nail in the coffin - but i'm not quite sure what the coffin represents..Don't worry it isn't suicide. I'm past all that, well, at least i hope i am.

I do feel a bit hopeless though, but i guess that's to be expected considering the situation. I'm feeling increasingly irritated with my body, not being able to do things and carry things. Managed to have a bath by myself today and wasn't scared to touch the scars (which are shrinking woo!).

Beth said she'll come round tommorow which will be nice. Still no word from Rich - suprise suprise.
Current Location: at home
Current Mood: angryangry
Current Music: crazy - aerosmith
touchbyanfairy7: esotsmtouchbyanfairy7 on June 28th, 2007 11:18 pm (UTC)
i'm praying for you.
Miaaboleyn on June 29th, 2007 01:26 pm (UTC)
Thankyou x
Ivana: TITANIC | Last Kissdicaprioangel on June 28th, 2007 11:29 pm (UTC)

I am here for you if you need me, hun. You've been through a lot and I cannot even begin to imagine how you feel. I hope things become better for you. Remain optimistic and make each day count, hun **hugs**

The Rich guy seems like such a jerk. Men. They don't understand ANYTHING.
Miaaboleyn on June 29th, 2007 01:27 pm (UTC)
Thanks hun - i will make each day count ;) Yeah he is a jerk